Today is 11 of February 2011. So wise for me to share a story of how we met.
I met you at a place called St. Francis of Asisi seminary in Miri. I spotted you sitting alone under the tree. I didn't take that much notice in you at that time. I was playing fool with Pharaldis and was under the influence of thinking myself supercool. What? Still, I saw you sitting silently under the tree. I was waiting for the rest of the family to come and complete the line-up. There was Pharadis, Pierina, Anamaria, my sister and I, so it was practically cousin's outing time. Oh ya, it was Life in Service Seminar or LSS for short. I despised going to these kinds of religious seminars but what can I do? I was only 16 by that time. Everything was decided by my Lady Boss, my dearest momma. So yeah, back here please. So we cousins decided to sit under the tree and I sat next to you, still thinking myself superfly and cool. I glanced at you a few times during we cousins conversing and I started to think that your are kinda cute. So yeah, shy mode? On. When it's time to register, you asked what time it is and I trembled a little. I am a shy guy okay (yeah right). So yeah.. you are cute. It was automatically embedded in this little ugly meat in my skull and I am clueless as what happens next. For all I know, my days to come would be filled with these little stares I will be giving you.
I observed you. During the talks and and activities, you are close to my cousins and my sister. Not that I am a stalker or something, I just like to look at you. I don't know why but I do enjoy the view of you. You were laughing away and smiling so ever sweetly, how can I resist not to look at you. You saw me and you smiled. I smiled back and how excited I was when you smiled back at me. I was like on top of the world and ecstatic beyond any. haha. Well, we were young and everything seemed so free. I talked to Pharaldis about you, how cute you look and all. It was the night before we make our confessions to the Father-in-charge. Pharaldis asked me to get your number, I shunned, saying a girl like you will most probably in a relationship and I don't wanna disturb people's relationship and all that crappy stuff. I slept and I thought what Pharaldis had said to me before hard. Yeah. The day after, it was confessions time and Pharaldis and I were sitting behind you. I searched for you and thank God that the seats behind you were empty. So we were talking and talking until it's our turn to make our confessions. We separated and go our own way after that.
You laughed when Basil and I were penalised for making shit in the chapel. How sweet and innocent the laugh was. You took my heart away without you knowing it. And I am falling fast.
It was dinner and people were eating their meal heartily and I am included. As I make my way out, there you are! Sitting on the stairs, with my cousins and you were smiling at me, I smiled back. How simple life was. Thanks to your smile, I ate my meal heartily. Thanks. I could not forget that smile till this day. The smile that struck me direct to the heart. I have made myself a promise that I must get to have your number by the end of the seminar. The next day, it was a practice day for our performance on the last day. There were people playing softball on the field and my group was rehearsing on some stage on the field there. Then come your group, wanted to practice there too. And you were texting on your phone during the rehearsal break. I lose hope immediately, knowing that my chance to get to know you pulverized to the heavens. Arghh~ I was feeling down and I pretended to be okay about it. Of course I should, or else I would be a sore loser because I am feeling down for a girl I knew just by name.
You were so close yet so far to me. The final part of the night was exciting. People were singing, giving praise to the big G, all happy and enjoying the moment. And there you are. Just a row ahead of mine. How I wanted to tell you that I wanted to hold your hands even just for a minute. I wanted you to know that I liked you and I wanted to know you more. I want you. How I wish you know what was in my mind that time. But there you are. Singing happily. I smiled watching you enjoyed yourself. Pretty.
It was the last day. People lined themselves up, all wanted to go back home sweet home. Me and you included. I know. I am not that kinda guy who approach the females and asked for their number. I am not. I am coward. I know you will go home and leave me behind with all those sweet short lived memory. Yeah. There you go... In the maroon Toyota Avanza, smiling towards me, I smiled back. I waved goodbye to you and I am sure that will be the last time I saw you. Yeah. I am looking forward for home.
Then...
My sister gave me a pair of numbers. Celcom and DiGi. What? I read the name Mary up on that little piece of paper. Wow. My heart was racing like hell. Thank God. The number was meant for my sister but thanks to her, the number is in my hands now. How I ecstatic I was!
I texted her and things started rolling from there. Till now. It was 2008 and things are still going well in 2011. I love you Mary Silvana. Happy anniversary. Mwahx!
p/s- Love gets you going when shit gets tough. Love is a drug and there is no cure. yeah.
