Yesterday was my birthday. 25th of February was birthday and this is the first time that I had my birthday far from my family. Well yeah. What do you expect when you study in Malaya and your family is Sarawak? Of course the birthday will be far from the family. The feeling of farness id very much felt when you are kinda close to your family. Yeah. I could say that I am quite close to my family. Yeah. Every birthday, the moment we walked outta the door of our room after waking up, kisses and wishes would be given and that to me, is the perfect gift anyone could have. I am lucky that I get that gift every year for the rest of my current life. I don’t mind didn’t getting any gifts or wishes from others as long as I get the gifts that I have said above. Now that I am 19, how should I put this… it is kinda weird that all the gifts I usually received are not there during the birthday. But what the hell, phone calls are suffice and I am thankful for that already. Being that far from your family really do had an impact to your dear life.
Humans are different in places. Yeah. I know. For all I know, if I had my birthday back at home, all I want are some time alone and watch tv or play games peacefully or driving. Just driving where my head wants to be at. My birthday here is really lonesome. Or shall I say, pathetic? Or ironic? I don’t know. I wished that I wanted some time alone when I’m back at home, now that I am far from home, the time alone is really so lonesome and I didn’t expect that it would be that lonesome. Bullshit, I really felt alone for the first time yesterday. But yeah… I planned to celebrate my birthday at KFC or going out somewhere today, all got screwed and not according to plan. What the hell, KHAR’s usual mini night market is okay already. I bought myself a kebab and sirap oren. Nice right? And then spend some time watching random movies I stored in my laptop and then watched BMX videos up in Youtube. Yeah, I guess that my wish was granted here, instead of home. Yeah. Now that I missed home, all the wishes I wished seemed like a bad idea after all.
I missed the sounds of my family back at home. The shouts of Arig, the chats with Avit and the umpats with Adeline. And of course the house would not be complete with the meaningful nags of my momma and the advises from my pops. Yeah. Knowing that I am already accustomed to all of that, without the sounds of them, life sure is getting lonely and lifeless. Being the eldest sure sucks sometimes but that is what fate had brought along with her. No use complaining and all. I am just not used to the lonely mornings and the delicious breakfast that my folks would have prepared. Humble breakfast but heartily fulfilling.
Argh! Momma’s kuey tiow suddenly crossed my mind!
What the hell. I am getting myself a hearty breakfast later this morning. If I am able to wake up early that is. Haha. Oh well… I gotta try. At least.haha. Nevermind that.
*sigh* the love? What can I say? I usually don’t talk private shits here but yeah, can you please understand that yesterday was my day? Why can’t you enjoy the day together with me and be happy about it instead of hammering me with all your temper? Argh~ Nevermind laa…
Wow. This is a long post.haha
Happy birthday to me! Can’t wait for my bike’s seat this late afternoon!
Peace!
PS-"Fate! There is such a thing as fate, but it only takes you so far. Then it's up to you to make it happen.'' - Can't Hardly Wait
