Three posts in one day? Nice. Argghh~ It is official. I am in deep shit of mental state right now. I am not depressed. I am not... what? I don't know. I just don't feel right. Something is missing and I don't know what the fuck is that. Shit man. I felt down.
The PTPTN money is running out faster than I thought. Shit. And there I was trying to bajet my spendings. I bought myself a BMX in hoping that I have something that can make me feel it is worth it to live for a while. But then, yeah. I don't know. Maybe I was trying so hard to be different and all. I dress different, I acted different and shit. For all I know, I just don't want be in this place of shit. And I am feeling that time is catching up with me, the assignments are getting harder and people talked like they are adults by now. I don't. I am not that kinda people. Although the assignments can be killing but I still acted cool eventhough shit will be submitted in short period of time to come. Arghh~
The memories just keeps on coming back. What the fuck. I love being alone and I enjoy being alone but sometimes shit is just too thick to be that alone. Humans need companion and I don't have any companion except for Mary Silvana. Arghh~ What is wrong with me.
I watched Youtube for hours on end. Watching the same BMX vids or some random comic standup acts that I alone could understand. I read Obefiend and Cob Nobbler for hours as well. Reading posts way back from a few years to a few months. I bought Malaysian comics and I read them and shit. I what? I don't know. I don't have a fucking life here like I was in Miri. This place is boring and I don't know why. Kuala Lumpur is kinda far and I don't know where to go there. Shit. Even my BMX, I did'nt even touch her today. What the fuck is wrong with me these couple of days? Arghh~ I rode my bike yesterday and that's it, I just don't know where to go around here and this place is shit for highways. What the fuck. Back in Borneo, highways are meant for long distance and not like here. You go out of the traffic light and the next thing you know is you are on a highway already. Shit. I miss mee kolok.
Damn... What can I say? I don't know what to say anymore. Shit. Nuff' said.
Peace!
P/S- Why are you eating that?pregnant mothers eat that sorta stuff.
